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Thursday, March 16, 2006

haix........
still feeling damn sad......boring....haix....
i don feel like bringing in sad things into this entry today....so i try to be happy for awhile...
woot.....this is my 45th post i think ehhh quite alot liao leh....
haix....haix....haix....
ok lah....today ar hmmmm....go back to school again for english remedial hahax...summary again haix...what can english teacher possibly think of other than summary,comprehension and compositions....
english is an important subject....if u fail that subject....then your future is almost gone....so must do well in english liao....:)
i gonna go back to being sad again haix....it's painful being sad right??
i keep saying look on the bright side but i never apply it in my own life...i'm a person which after i'm angry or sad the next few moments i will be happy again but given the situation now how can i jus bluff myself from being happy when i'm downright upset and cannot even produce a smile to everyone...
u know that apple pie,they look crispy one the outside and fresh fillings on the inside these are good things but for me i'm happy on the outside but sad on the inside which is bad....but why?
i'm like lost and don know what to do already....i can't continue my journey which i embarked on earlier.....the journey where.......aiya better not say...
thinking about everything that happen around u is a good thing....u cannot stop thinking...once u stop think then thats it....u will be stuck forever until finally after so long u will awake and continue on but by that time everything around u have change and u have to adapt to it again...
everyday if u can,please take a few moments to think of what happen today and the past....think of the mistakes u made and all the things u had done....after u thought of those things try thinking what will happen in the future if these or that happen....u can see everything is all planned out nicely for u....there are ups and downs in life where humans cannot avoid them....and there are winning and losing times in things that u do....everything cannot possibly go your way....u may think that if everything go your way u will feel as if nothing can stop u....u may think that if nothing goes your way and things that had happen to u are bad things example u losing a competition but have u ever wonder how much blessings u receive from GOD from the day that u are being born till this very living day of yours....if u actually can count them,there are more blessings than bad things that happen to u....so i say not everything can go your way so be realistic and find an alternate path to go on and not stuck in your past...as i'm saying this i'm also finding an alternate path for myself but i can't bear to change paths....it's complicated hahax...i will let the sad spirit of my leave my body at once then there will be light in my life and no darkness....so stay happy.... :)
feeling much better :) o.O longest post ever hahax...
seeya!!!!

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